Revelations of a Single Mama
It’s been a while since I last posted. In the time of COVID-19, I feel like we’re all on edge. With the slightest symptom, we panic “RONA?!!” The truth is, I spend most days worried about my own mortality. I never thought it would be such an all-consuming fear. Have any of you single mama’s…
This month, my baby will be 9 months old. I can’t believe it. It’s gone so fast, yet it feels like there was never a time that I didn’t have my little one by my side. To mark the occasion, I’m revealing my absolute favorite items. Either I just loved it or it really helped…
As I gazed into my sweet little girl’s eyes while nursing her, tears streamed down my face. All I could think about is how it’s all my fault that she was brought into this hell. She was only a month old when I realized that I cried nonstop, he yelled nonstop, and my baby too,…
Sequel to “To My Future Love…I’m So Sorry” I am the proud mommy to a sweet little girl. Like all moms, I would do absolutely anything for her and she can do no wrong. And because she’s so wonderful, I’d love another baby someday. The problem is…I’m single. Single and happy, but single. If…
Regret…I talk a lot about regret on my blog, because it’s been the all-consuming emotion that I’ve dealt with throughout this process. I’ve read in various sources that divorce is one of the most painful things you’ll go through in life. I would say it’s difficult and heartbreaking, but I can think of so many…
I received an apology email from my estranged husband the other night. I filed for divorce almost 4 months ago and he finally gets it. He apologized for being selfish, hateful with his words, and an overall terrible husband (sort of). I couldn’t believe the words I was reading. With a narcissist, they rarely realize…
I know what you’re thinking, there’s a bright side to getting divorced??? Yes, absolutely! While the process is brutal and seems like it’ll never end, there are many positives to look forward to in the end. In case you’re feeling down in the dumps today, these points will hopefully perk you up. We’ve all been…
How is the pandemic affecting you? I’ve been stressed for the safety of my baby and my family. Especially for a single mom, there is another level of stress added onto our plate. If you’re sharing custody of your littles with your ex, you may be stressed like I am. I’m able to completely quarantine…
All moms…married, single, divorced, widowed, artificially inseminated, adoptive, foster, etc. You are all superheroes and amazing sacrificial people that I look up to. It’s incredible what moms go through to bring another life into this world and raise them. I’ve always appreciated and respected my mom, but after my own journey to motherhood, I’ve gained…
When I think about what happened in my marriage and why it took so long to see the light, I think of the line in Hemingway’s The Sun Also Rises when Mike Campbell is asked how he went bankrupt: “Two ways,” he said. “Gradually and then suddenly”. That’s what happened with me. While they’re talking…
My baby’s father called tonight to cancel his parenting time with our little girl, AGAIN. His excuse this time…he may be coming down with a cold. He always comes up with these excuses. One of my favorites was when he said he hurt his back rearranging some stuff at his apartment. Generally, he pretends to…
When I left my husband, so many of my girlfriends were also ending relationships, filing for divorce, or booting out live-in boyfriends. This isn’t to say that this was a result of me leaving my husband, but sometimes, we feel comfort in having similar situations around us and it gives us courage to do what…
My baby girl was only a few weeks old when I realized my life wasn’t normal. Or at least what I felt was normal and what I longed for. Watching my sister and brother-in-law, I loved that they both always put my niece down for bed. Brush her teeth, read a story, and tuck her…